Before I leave for good

I have come across as a drama queen at times and there is no need.  People here are friendlier than can sometimes seem from just reading text.  I have explained to Laird in an email that I hate feeling powerless and this can make me stubborn and resentful in certain situations.  Let's put that aside because the apparent connection to my mood from the heated debate earlier is not the issue here.  There is no connection.

Let's put it like this;  I feel that a flame burned brightly in me for some time and now it has burned out.  I don't, however feel burned out per se, in fact I feel more peaceful than I have ever done before, as if a long and difficult goal has finally been accomplished.  I don't know if this means anything at all but my fallible ability to interpret events has left me wondering about things.  It might prove to be just a kind of positive and restful "breakdown" if such exists - a way of letting go that causes no harm.  I don't know what to expect to be honest but one thing is certain;  I have no fear of this.

Um... what?

So... the Psience Quest forums will close because one individual was banned...?

No Valmar.  2. has nothing to do with 1.  I suppose all things are uncertain really but sometimes one feels an unusual certainty about something one doesn't have info about via the usual means.  I hope I am wrong.  Whatever I might feel at any given time, you guys need a good platform to discuss this stuff and this is really the best platform for it.

HERE'S TO THE UNKNOWN