Training Updates

Training has started feeling much more natural, whivh is a pretty major factor in all this as best as I can tell. It’s weird realizing that I have what is essentially the blueprint of magic, at least a version 1 of it. And everything feeling very normal seems like one of the keys to making it work. All I’m really doing at this point is a modified version of poltergeisting, which itself is just a modified version of astral projection/OBE.

So, in theory, it should follow the same patterns as those skills. Which means that the more normal and natural everything feels, like the whole concept is no big deal, the more likely it becomes that something real triggers. Likely it will happen unconsciously at first, where I just slip into a mental state without realizing it that allows things to flow just well enough for something solid to form with my energy. Then I’ll probably remember that feeling and be able to start replicating it with mixed success, trending towards on demand reliability. Right now I think the main focus should be on continuing to let it normalize and “using it like I already have it” which is an phrase I was told a long time ago when I was just starting with this.

The struggle with normalization is the primary reason why I’vr figured that others would be able to attain success much faster than me if they tried. Other people don’t have the baggage I have with magic, and so they should be able to apply all these things without all the blocks that I’m dealing with. And given that all this is just a mixture of active and passive sensorialization, as in, not just visual, not just touch, all senses, mixed with some mental focus, meditation and energetic stuff that you can learn almost anywhere; I can’t see why other people couldn’t start getting results within a year. Whether they do get results within a year is another story, but I don’t see it being impossible or unreasonable at all. Even within a month seems possible.

Seriously, just go do some meditation, maybe learn some reiki, the Bengston healing method, or maybe even vortex healing. Go learn some stuff about OBE’s from Graham Nicholls, then go learn a bit about PK from Sean Macnamera and/or Cherylee Black, and combine all that together and you should be able to do what I’m trying to do. I admittedly haven’t used any of their stuff, all my stuff is my own for the most part, but I know they have developed stuff that works in its own area. It just needs to be brought together. It would certainly take focused time and effort to achieve, but as far as I can tell it is doable.

I’ve more or less stopped training for the moment, having gotten way to burnt out on life to continue. Mainly all I’m working on is meditation and OBE practice now. I’m hoping the break will help but I have no idea. I’ve pushed myself through the diminishing returns because I generally feel like I have a very limited amount of time to make this work before the world becomes too locked down for that to be possible but I have no idea how long I have. But at this point I can’t deny that I’m sort of okay with the idea of not suceeding, I have the basic blueprint for magic and I know for a fact that what I’m trying to do is possible. So if I ended up dying before making it all work I’d be fine. I’d stil prefer to actually make it work, but if not, whatever.

I haven’t induced a proper OBE in years. I think the last big one I did was May 1 2017. I was already long in the process of shutting down all my practice of OBE’s, projection and such in favor of direct training at that point  which I was clearly not ready for at the time. I don’t think I’ve had an OBE since but I’ve always felt like having one would do me good and might be the key to making this all work. But I’m not really working on it with much seriousness, if it happens it happens. Until then I guess I’ll try relaxing and doing other stuff, for better or worse.